frozenseasndicebergs

If I worked on something, but abandoned it half way, would I ever be able to go back to it and finish it? No perhaps. I could never. First up, the circumstances would be worlds apart. How I felt when I started would vastly differ from how I would think when I would resume. I'd miss the feel, entirely. Maybe that's what happened; the desert winds churn up the sand with every passing storm. It's never the same again. I can never go back to where it all began; right all the wrongs; change history. Ririn. I now understand, it's futile pursuing something that's this pointless. Maybe that's how I want, to understand.

wouldn't mind if it never happened, i'm pretty used to it now. it was hard, but im ok now. when it stopped, i was going crazy. i was so used to getting it out, i didn't know what to do when i couldn't. i wouldn't mind if you didn't. i wouldn't know what to do if you did. im not saying you shouldn't; i guess i still can't say that. i'd love it if you did. but that would pretty much be it. after what happened, i needed to get out of the habit of getting it all out with you. you were hardly there anyway. even you have people you get stuff out with, but i don't. now that i think about it, i hardly ever did after i grew up. who knows my story?

it's funny how i knew already. something like this was going to happen sooner or later, and now that i think about it, i sort of knew how the wheels would be set into motion. God has a  funny sense of humor. every time i asked Him what i should do, He would never let me give up. that was until i slammed the door on my own face. kenchan was a really good and really close friend. kenchan would come screaming, and kenchan would really want to listen to you. but you'd only get kenchan if kenchan wanted you. maybe thats what bothered me about kenchan the most. i tried and tried, but never could get there. and in this moment of truth, perhaps i sh